- Things got too personal
- I didn’t like how I wrote and lost steam on revising
- I lost focus on what I wanted to say
- Things got too personal
Caveat: I’m okay, really:)
I’ve been thinking about teaching in ways that are the same as they’ve always been and also so different, and I can’t explain it without a few years off to study this (fear); I have had lots of family and friend stuff going on (things too personal); I wrote about pedagogy, ideas, student choice and voice, and it sounded preachy and pedantic (fear); I wrote about how I am good with thinking differently because I have an online PLN that supports my thinking (along with my teaching cohort) (fear); I wrote about how much less work it is to personalize learning with technology and feared teacher response (fear). More stuff happened to friends and loved ones and has activated that go-to response and has exhausted me and makes me think I can’t quite take anything else (fear and too personal).
There you have it: the subject of all my blogs that were layered under the context of really good things. Here is the mash-up of all the good stuff I left behind:
Caveat: I’m hoping this shows I really am okay:)
Student choice allows students to have an authentic entry into learning; students’ voices are heard from the smallest items to the largest class-changing procedures; students can safely fail; students love learning and own it; students move me to learn, think, grow, every day. What that last sentence just said x30.
I’m more excited than ever to be a teacher. This school year, two weeks in, has been rough on me personally. I’ve been sick, busy with taking care of others, making sure I take care of myself, and...well, lots of other things. But being back to school has been the balm my soul has needed. My 8th graders are:
- Filled with curiosity
- Hard working
So, here. I braved this fear and am publishing this. I needed to just reach out and write a blog. I will ask my students to hold me accountable for weekly blogs. And these 8th graders will do it.
And I ask my students to remind me, when I forget, to remember their lives, all that they have in their lives. All the good. All the challenges. All that they fear. How it holds them back. And how we can move forward. How I can help them.
Gratitude: my students and my community of learners at school and online. And, Danny. And Emily.
Goal: put aside more fear so that my blogs reach more heartstrings.
P.S: to my 8th graders: Ms. Millikan described this blog as one big mindset. What do you think?